The story would have been full of joy... I would have repeated the story in a big full smile painted in my face... The sparkles on my eyes should have spoken every beats in my heart.
But that is not the case. Instead, you may find me pacing back and forth, listening to all mourning lullaby and even more pondering about this... A particular tale of him and I.
Our virtual reconnection went good. Terribly went smooth and well in fact. After months and months we've written to each other and befriended with social media, we finally had the courage to 'see' each other again. It was unexpectedly like how it used to be...
Him being himself and me being myself.. Time and distance have only made us understanding each other even more...
It almost felt like, I have never left.
Stories, laughs were shared... For a moment, I felt that perhaps, him and I was a foreseeable tale.
With a rather challenging track record of relationship, a slight victorious feeling almost sneaked in when I realized that months and months apart...we are still in touch and involved in what we call, long distance lovers.
But of course, distance is distance...and time is time...
I'm here and he's there.
Based in this rather painful and challenging fact that I decided to refuse being merry for our continuous relationship and that perhaps, I should take a break from romance.
For at least 14 days.
Yes, just name them... I'm insane, paranoid, worried-much, etc, etc... Well, ladies and gents, those accusations pretty much suit me.
Should I be honest, I'm frightened of the possibility of another broken heart.
Hence, the romance rehab that I decided to enter starting from today.
Inspired by "Love Cleanse" promoted by this twitter user "TheDailyLove", I decided to stop: obssessing about romance, flirting, talking about any guy that I have crush on, (hate to admit) stalking anyone's social media, etc, etc...
Instead what I should be doing is: focusing on my fabolous self!
Bravo! Should've figured that out awhile ago! Haha
So, that's what I'm doing now...
Day 1 is definitely a challenge as there has been urge to mention my crush's name in every freaking conversations I have...
But, someone has to start from somewhere... That somewhere includes replacing songs that have been in my playlist for months with new songs, deleting photos in blackberry and even brushing up on my Italian (I need to keep my mind preoccupied with other things)
I'll reinvent about things to think or do tomorrow.. This kinda time requires lots of creativity!
Ah, can't wait for the next 13 days!
Seems like I'll be blogging a lot.. Please do bear with me.
*Bismillah
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