Love/Hate

In life, sometimes you have to choose. Between yes and no. Between ups and downs. Between hope and reality. Between future and present. It is not always easy. It cannot always be black and white. It, simply, cannot be not complicated. But it shouldn't stop anyone from making a choice. It may bring you to your downfall. Or, it may even bring you to the happiness that you have been longing for. Basically, do not be afraid to choose, take a chance. No one says that life would be easy. Relationship would always be convenient and comfortable. Or Work would be simple. But that is just how it is and it all comes down to how you deal with it. True, my life experience is only half yours. True, I am more idealistic when it comes to life approach. True, I am less afraid of what's facing in front of us. It is not because I am a super woman. It is not because I have magic trick. But it is simply because I know that we have now has given me strength, willingness to try. To make it work. As someone who just would rather swallow a bullet than beg anyone to stay...and as someone who's a strong advocate of women power, I find myself conflicting in the idea of having to fight or even give argument on why we could work. But rightly or wrongly, I do have and want to be honest....and it means that you have heard me over and over again sounding message 'how we are great together. Even in future tense too.' to you. True, your indecisiveness could just make me want to shake you up and scream 'grow up!' to you. True, your lack of consideration could just make me want to say 'Screw you!'. True, your mood swing could just make me have to swallow my pride. If you were somebody else, we probably wouldn't stand a chance. But you are not somebody else. You are you. One that makes me smile. One that makes me laugh. One that takes care of me. One that gets along with almost everyone that matter to me. One that can make me rethink twice before I do stupid things. One that can make me less selfish. One that can make me want to be a better person. And more importantly, one that makes me go beyond to work on our relationship. Now, its probably not enough for you. But, nothing will be enough. It's probably not giving you certainty. But, nothing will. People sometimes make promises, but they sometimes are the ones who break them. Future is unknown. But I tell you this. You love me. I love you. We are a good partner. So surely, whatever we face in future, you know we have those fundamental basics. ...and just when you think that it'd be easy to give up...just remember times when you make me laugh. Love and Hate,