A day before Ramadhan commence...

Been awhile for I to write on my blog... Reasons are various:

-working all day... 5 days a week

-weekends end with various activities: from doing random things with mates... (well, it is summer in the end), baking, cleaning my apt or even my favorite thing to do...sitting on the couch watching TV all day (someone has to catch up with Anthony Bourdain's and HBO's shows)

-and now since I was recruited as an intern by a NGO here in DC... my everyday is even busier

So busy that there is not even a second for I not thinking about how inviting my bed is...

-oh and, my laptop's getting older and older... so old that it takes almost 30 mins just to turn it on... Hence, I'd prefer not to further burdening my PUB (my laptop's name)

Those understate the reasons why I dissapeared for awhile from my own blog...

Dont get me wrong... though,I might have not had enough time to write on my blog...I keep myself insane by writing on my notes in my cellphone, which by the way, doesnt have a name yet...

But I realize.. there is nothing like writing in this public diary...

And ofcourse, encouraged by Kambing Jantan movie (finally, I got to watch it!) and envied my friend Edu... who's apparently been updating his blog... I decided to write this

So here I am... sitting in my cubicle, listening to Adele "Right as Rain" and using my 45 mins break to write on my blog after a 3-month-break

Today is the last day before Ramadhan commence tomorrow. How do I feel? Well... I dont know...

Part of me... despise the fact that I would have to fast for whole days... Being here in the U.S, in the summer where the weather can reach as high as 40 C... and break-fasting as early as 8 pm in the evening.... really discouraging.

However, the other part of me... started begging me to change...for a better. I have never fasted in Ramadhan in my entire life. Well, maybe for one to three days, but I dont recall myself fasting for more than 5 days in Ramadhan...

And I am not going to justify my previous actions...Therefore, being 23 and being where I am right now...I feel that, this might be the time. Time to be a better person, which also means trying to be closer to Alloh.

Amid I being hesitant, I hope you'd pray for us to be better people... for people around us... for the world.

Life is full of uncertainties, for sure. Heck, even I cant make my own decision whether I am going to fast tomorrow...

But thats so funny about life... It presents you with options.

And sometimes, we take that for granted. We dont appreciate options that we have.

Like, we got options to appreciate and let people we love know how our true feeling is... and when life decides to take our options... perhaps the only option that left is... regret.

Lately, I am reminded that people you love is not immortal... People do die. Bummer! how I deteste that word!

Hence, I'd like to say thank you for everyone who's been in my life, even if it was for a very short time.

I believe that there's always reasons for everything...

And as Ramadhan's coming tomorrow... I'd like to start it on a good note... I apologize for any words or attitudes which might have hurted you.

once again, thank you for being part of my life in anyway.