when reality becomes too real

I don't really use the word "lonely" in my life for an obvious reason, I didn't reckon it was applicable to me. Until today.

The word has found me. I damn deteste it! Its like I want to be honest with myself but yet part of me defies it.

Perhaps I am just too emotional. Perhaps I had always been in denial. Whatever the reason is, loneliness is palpable.

To God, would you please hold my hand?