There's always price for everything

Ay ya! bad experiences... what did I learn from the past? well...well... niente...!

Everything did look blurry and fly me to the moon... but then after a hundred dollar... you know that it aint worth it...

I guess when they said how stupid I was... they were so damn right...

My question is: How did they know better than me? Well... wait... I was in love! Yea... by sense that... I was 'freaking' blinded by the light...

Thats the thing about falling in love or even just liking somebody...your logical mind just doesnt work...at all!

They told me that it wasnt okey... I kept saying... how do you know when you werent there when he was looking at me? how do you know when you werent there when he said those sweet things to me?

Well... the answer is... they all live in the REALITY!!!!

Okey... just take me for example... I've been through many smiles and tears cuz by guys... and I still fall to the same freaking hole again... no matter how careful I am...

To me... guys come and go... but still once you're hurt... you're still hurt... no matter what!

Well...

You know what: DONT EXPECT ANYTHING FROM ANYONE... no matter HOW disturbingly promising they are to you...

i guess the fortune teller's right...and this time.. like he said, I am blaming myself... shit happens...

I just hope that God will really grant me my prayers this time.

My Thanks goes to.......

I am a big girl in a big world...
It's not a big thing if you leave me..
But I do feel... that I will MISS you much...
(Emilia-Big world)

Well... if anything could describe how I really feel at this moment-7 hours before leaving to JKT- I suppose this song fits perfectly...

My stomach is aching.. I guess because I am nervous and anxious to leave...

My packing is still on the way... haha... honestly, I feel like I am missing something...

I hate leaving and say goodbye... I always question myself whats the point of meeting somebody if you're gunna say goodbye in the end...

I've got a very pleasant 3 months of break at home... unpredictable things have happened...and I am very content with what I have achieved so far here...

Met new people which become good friends of mine... met some old friends which become the best people to hung out with...

I just want you to know how special each and everyone of you...because you have made my summer went WOW!

Abang : Thanks for everything... and I mean it from the very bottom of my heart... Hope God will be kind enough to cross our path again someday...because I'd love to see you again...
you made my last 2 months more special with :

- our late nite calls after 10 pm ofcourse,
- sms-es... even waktu clubbing... hahaha... like we dont have any better things to do :P
- T2 and Ussy... the greatest song we've ever invented
- Gym.. Go work your butt out mister!
- Modelling contest... no 27 hahaha
-'jalan-jalan'... cuman yang belum ke Borobudur aja hahah...
- Discussing about... well mostly, your life and future... hahah
- our Private Jokes...:P


p.s: Have fun September nanti ya...Take some pics for me...hahah


IBC FM crews: Orang Semarang SEMUA SUKA!

pAK Arief : Makasih buat semuanya ya pak...:)

Mbak Ririn : can't tell how much I thank you for the opportunity and for our deep YM conversations.... looking forward to see you online...also good luck with everythin

Mbak Vena : Thanks ya for being there when I needed... miss you! and good luck at the new place.

Mas Fery : AY YA YA... I guess we have to thank DEVIRA... hope you'll find someone way better than her..haha

Mbak Betha : Sibukkk terussssssss!!!! we have to look for more times to share... wish you all the best in love and life

Mbak Mira : FUN FUN FUN!!! ayo kita dugem lagi.. tapi pulang gasik ya... haha

Augie : Nongkrong lagi!! sukses Nge-Mc-nya

Mas Tommy : Thanks buat gratisan dan kelengkengnya hahaha


My very good friends:

Dewi : Ay! I hang out too much with you .... hahahaha Love you!

Dhira: There's nothing more to say than... will miss my buddy!

Mbak Endah : for being a very good cousin to me :) good luck ama sekolah dan abangmu ya...


Then :

Aure : for making my life sooooo much easier...love you for that!!!!

TKCI Semarang : REmbol!!!!!

Mas Aldo for every supports which came all the way from Melbourne... dont know what I am gunna do with you...thanks ya mas :)

Binadi, Shinta : it's swimming time!

Ariomas : well.. I will always need you everytime... haha makasih ya buat supportnya

Mas Sigit : For the LAST laugh.... its always fun to be with you... miss our crazy karaoke nite :D


And every single persons whom I met while I was in my break... You know who you are... and I thank you for that... forgive my imperfect memories...:)

I cant wait to return again... and hopefully by then... we already will have achieving what we all always want...