Shatter...

Ahh today's my last day at school...but it aint totally over yet cuz' next week, shall i start to work whereelse but at my school...

at least i got couple days off before return to my school...

It's a relaxing day... ate a lot though...but then again... it makes me feel better, so hell with it!

I supposed school work was one of my stressor... cuz' I realize how relax I am at this moment...

I, once again, deleted him from my convo, but to be honest, sometimes, I still hope that miracle would happen...

well apparently, I cant always get what I want huh? What a surprise!

Quite honest, I dont recognize my feelings anymore... I am confused... and that confusion's killing me because it leaves me in blindness...

I miss him, surely do... But the more I think about it, the more I get scared if that was my last time to see him in my life... I, honestly, wont able to afford my feeling if that comes true.

I have to see him again... just to see him. You know, he was and in fact, still is special for me, in the sense that he taught me how it's so great to feel like a woman... woman who deserves better. I love him for everything that he made me feel.

I really dont know where life's going to take me next... I probably will meet somebody else, falling, broken heart, tears... what a cycle of romance eh?!

But I guess things happen for reasons... It really did hurt me... but I believe in destiny...

"I learn about life...in the hard way...show me, love doesnt have to hurt"

I pray to God, to give him and I happiness... whatever the reason, I just dont want him to suffer. And in the future, I hope God would be kind enough to cross our path again, because he is someone whom I cared about.