Saturday, March 3, 2007

To the dearest woman I love...


Wind Beneath My Wings

It must have been cold there in my shadow,To never have sunlight on your face.

You were content to let me shine, thats your way.
You always walked a step behind.
So I was the one with all the glory,
While you were the one with all the strain.
A beautiful face without a name for so long.
A beautiful smile to hide the pain.
Did you ever know that you’re my hero,
And everything I would like to be?
I can fly higher than an eagle,
For you are the wind beneath my wings

Ma,
How are you today? How’s work going for you? I am here doing fine, just a little bit tired of wearing jackets everywhere. Haha. It is quite cold here, oh God, I can not wait for summer to come. School goes pretty good too, trying to keep myself busy as always.
By the way, I was listening to Bette Midler song called Wind Beneath My Wings today, and a thought of you came across my mind so I decided to write you this letter.
Ma,
Do you remember when you always remind me that I can achieve my dreams even the most impossible ones? Well, look at me now ma, I am here in the place where once, was impossible for me to even dream about it. Foolish enough for me if I said that, I could get here by myself. Because in fact, I would not even dare to dream if it was not you told me that, it was okey to dream.
Ma,
I miss you, I really do, but I can not tell you; even over the phone. I am afraid if it will upset you.
Ma,
I know that I have to be strong here, just like what you have always taught me and Rivan. I might never tell you that you are my greatest teacher and that I have learned about life from you. I have learned to smile when I cry. I have learned to dream when I fail. I have learned to not to giving up when I fall. I have learned to share. I have learned to love and trust people. I have learned to always remember even in the most painful situation, God will always be there for us as long as I have faith in Him. I have learned that I will always have my family anytime I need them. And most of all, I have learned my greatest lesson that I can always count on you. You are my everything.
Ma,
I know that I still have a long way to go and I really hope that God will be kind enough to let you always be with me. I am scared if I would not have enough time to make you proud.
Ma,
I pray to God that you will be there when I finally achieve the dreams that, you believed, I could make it happen. Well that might take longer time before it come true, so I guess the best thing I do now is to try my best to never let you down. Because hurting you means hurting me too. You have given your family everything you have. Your times, works, tears, hearts and anyting that I can not even think of, all are dedicated for us. You always make sure that we get what we want. Sometimes I wonder, where did you get all of those strengths and patients?
Ma,
I might have many people whom I admire but truly, there is only one who will always have the highest place in my heart, and it is you. You are my idol whom I will always admire. An idol whom I owe my life to. An idol who has made me to be who I am right now.
You are my Wind Beneath My Wings.

I love you Ma.

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

Oh my Gosh.. i feel the same way too, damn Kat you made me cry !!