Keep repeating the same old song...

The littlest thing

Sometimes I find myself sitting back and reminiscing
Especially when I have to watch other people kissing
And I remember when you started calling me your Mrs
Dreams, dreams of when we had just started things
Dreams of you and me
It seems, it seems that I can’t shake those memories
I wonder if you have the same dreams too
The littlest things that take me there
I know it sounds lame but it’s so true
I know it’s not right but it seems unfair
That thing’s are reminding me of you
Sometimes I wish we could just pretend
Even if only for one weekend
So come onTell meIs this the end?
The first time that you introduced me to your friends
And you could that tell I was nervous,
so you held my hand
There’s no-one in the world who could replace you


A little brief summary from Lily Allen song... kinda remind me about everything that him and i had... (its literally true!)
It's funny how lately i can smile again... and even tempted to fall with somebody else... i was happy, realizing that i finally can move on... until this minute, i find myself sitting here and writing this blog... i just hope i just over dramatize things ( somethings that i tend to do with my own feeling...)
I was planning to write something empowering to the ladies for my very first blog... but i guess, I can not always be so strong... and my weakness is... I can not lie when I am writting... Because for me, since i am not good at confronting... writting is my only way to speak my truth feelings...

I had a little conversation with a guy friend of mine, of how i realized that i tend to repeat my same mistakes over and over again.... i understand that i need to learn from my mistakes... but guess what happen? Ooops... I did it again! I fall in when I told myself I should not!

Now i know why my friends told me that I would never escape from 'guys'. I thought it was only because most of my friends are guys... but I guess... its true that my world always tempts to include guys in the story... yea i know right?! Crazzzyyy!! and to make the story even more fascinating... literally, there's always at least a guy who being tangled up in my story... (its like they are everywhere!)

And the story basically goes the same... flirtatious which result in the confusion of my own feeling....Which also in the end, going to break my heart...

Dont get me wrong... I like guys... but with me, at least for this moment, I am not into 'lets having a relationship' kinda thing... I am more in 'Yes, i like your attention, but we shall see if I really really wanna be with you' relationship...

Well, I just wanna protect my heart... nothing else but protecting my heart...