I know not...

...and hello again,

Been awhile since I updated this blog - but tracing back this blog, you might just see how more and more irregular I am in updating you, my reader. (I am not even sure if anyone would even care to read this) :) But per puro caso (by sheer of chance), hope someone i.e. you would actually read my blog.

Things have been well with me... still loaded with works, and more works and more traveling (Yay!) and get to see more and more new faces. It's just amazing how different one person from another, I realize.

The recent trip to this little island humbled me and made me wondering, if life was supposed to be or could be as simple as how people there live it.

Of course, the people there do have challenges e.g. inadequate education, public facilities, etc (they were badly damaged by earthquake in 2006) - heck, they even have big concern over corruption (whats new!).. but the closer I looked, the more I realized that they are bunch of grateful people!

In this very modest scene, at least 50 teachers from different parts of the island came and were volunteered to be trained... and they were just very accepting towards the situation that they are in.

Acceptance is definitely something that might just be a characteristic that people nowadays i.e. me lack of and sets me apart with them. It is a simple concept of living this life, which sometimes I forget.

That very concept might just be the answer of my question, "Do we or could we have a safety net in life?" - well ladies and gents, maybe we do and its called, acceptance.

You try hard achieving your dream, risking your heart and getting hurt - and the vicious cycle sometimes doesnt stop - but instead of keep being dissapointed and hating the world, perhaps we just need to slow down and accept what has come.

Allow ourselves to accept that sometime, something is just not meant for us, no matter how hard we try or high we hope.

My heart sunk even when I am writing this. To me, its very clear what it is that I need to let go or actually, in the process of letting go.

Frankly I am just not too certain if it really was my heart or my pride that takes this the hardest.

But again, whatever it is - I need to accept that the very dream should just remain as a dream, in the past.

Accept. Accept. Accept. I am telling myself.

But to begin with... I am fully aware that I am not in the position to force my will nor that I want to. I have no option but accepting.

"I could have...
we could have...
What could have I done...?
What have I done...?"

Those are things that run through my head and I know that eventually I might or might not come to my consciousness that regardless how hard I try or high I hope... something is just not meant for me. And as simple as life should be, I need to accept that.




-The fact that you are willing to say, "I do not understand, and it is fine," is the greatest understanding you could exhibit.- Wayne Dyer