Do I have a life?!

I was stunned when a colleague in retrospect asked if I had a life. The question appeared when I told her that I had spent sometime working during the holiday. It is not a first that I find people either think a) that I work too hard and rarely relax b) I have no life.

Maybe they are not entirely wrong. I do work hard and every time I catch myself doing nothing, I get a little anxious and just want to do something. My works come to rescue. It is perhaps for my own mind wellness. I need to feed my mind so it doesn't wander in its own track.

I am an obsessive thinker, if you don't notice. It is a bless and a curse. I mostly can think of every scenarios that might happen in my life and prepare me for that - you rarely catch me off guard. But that very scenarios drive me insane at times. I get worried for the thoughts that is created by my own mind. It is exhausting.

So when I don't have good books to read (which usually only take 2-3 days to finish), or new places to visit (so I can be mesmerized by the new of it), I tend to reach out to the closest solution, working.

I happen to like what I do, so far.

Working is definitely good distraction for my restless mind and it definitely is something that I have control over.

I am a big believer of "be the best in something that you can control..." so at least if other major things in your life (e.g. Romance) steer you in unexpected situation, you aren't completely lost.

And in this very time, one of the major things in my life, romance, is very much not always in my favor - which of course, has made me thinking, a little too much.

But here's what I've learned... by the end of the day, when there's only so much that you can do... you can only hope and pray....and let go.

Let go things that you have no control over and be the best in things where you know you have more control... in my case is my work.

So to answer retrospective question if I have a life... well, I very much do.