Once upon a time in the la la land...

We were happy once. You know, like a normal couple who were infatuated. Emails were our messenger and that special sound from my blackberry became something that thrilled me... I'd be fully in alert, it was another email from him. It was real, what we had.

But like other stories that I am familiar with, the curtain was soon closing... Time and place had witnessed us growing apart. The story was no longer appealing as it only offered tears and heartache.

Then I moved on... like an actress who's desperately looking for the next act. And, I just knew where I wanted to go... it was to him, my very favorite one.

I always always seek for him everytime life is unkind. With him, I find myself. As insane as it sounds, he's a true reflection of me... I see myself in him and he sees himself in me.

And, somehow...life wasn't so bad anymore...

But that's not how life works and you can't always hide from it. He would soon leave and find someone else... who's real for him and not some kind of 'reflection' that only stays temporarily.

He needs love and I can give him that. I am more than capable of that... But all I need for him to do is just have more faith in me and us.

He did not. He preferred to move on. Without me. Without us.

And then, like the sun rays warms the winter... life decided to introduce me to someone new...

It is easy, simple but yet complicated with him... Laughing becomes so easy. He does bring me back from my dull scenes.

But again... the maze of the story is just so bewildering that I am frightened... it will just drag me back to that familiar place where tears, dissapointment and heartache will embrace and befriend me.