Rivan!

Hah! definitely a day before my BIG DAY to be a 21 years old woman... yes you're right, somebody here is a WOMAN now (or at least I will try)... lol

So my birthday is tomorrow, however, I managed to speak with my parents last nite (morning in Indo) for about 3 hours... Yes I miss them.

Listening to their voices really made me happy... cuz' you know that they care about you and stuff...

It was kinda surprising when my mother goes to me, "I havent able to sent your brother's gift yet... cuz' I need to get you something first"... I was like, "My brother's gift?!!"

Wait a second...

Yea, my little brother, Rivan... who barely even remember my birthday... got me a gift... now thats something!

I really cant wait to see whats in it... well its really... nothing about the gift, but the thoughts that count.... and coming from a person who sometimes need to be reminded about your birthday... it really gives you hope, that someone out there cares about you... oh GOD, only You know how I love my little brother...

I miss hanging out with him... although he's only 16... but he's like one of my friend...

Yes, we do fight. A lot. But what I know always is... he will always be my brother no matter how annoying he is...

We've been through a lot together as brother and sister. There were sometimes in the past which made him really hated me (literrally hated me!). It was like hell, when your sibling said that they dont wanna be your sibling.

It really was my fault... and I tried to fix it.

It wasnt easy...( esp for those of you who knows Rivan well, you know what I mean.)

But I thank God, that he finally would give me another chance to be a better sister.

I promised myself that I will never waste my chance. NEVER AGAIN.

I hope all the best for him, always.

Miss you Rivan!!!

My little brother,

Clock on my wall is ticking

Dates on my calendar is changing

There's another journey for me to go

He said, "Who am I going to talk to when you're gone?"

I replied, "You can always call me"

There's a little doubt in his eyes

Oh God, I hate letting him down...

If I could have one wish for this very moment....

I hope he knows...

how proud I am to be his sister... and,

no matter how far I am... he will always have me by his side anytime he needs me...