...When a fool...

...well, I woke up with question that still lingers 'How long do you need to convince someone that you are worth it...and that what you have is good?', 'Why do I even need to convince you...?' Maybe I am naive, inexperienced - but I have always imagined that you wouldnt have any doubt, you wouldnt need lots of convincing when you find one that has made you less selfish, care more and see life in a more colorful way. That's how I have felt about him. Doubt was slowly swept away, replaced with hope and bliss. But when I found myself to convince him again, those doubts, dissapointment and humiliation have rushed in. I doubt if he even loves me, the way I love him. I am dissapointed at him for hurting me (again!) and at myself for letting me believe that this may work. I am humiliated when I find myself questioning my own self, trying to convince you that I am worth it. People will never change. Dreams may not always happen. I am not perfect, and I am working on myself. But I am not sure just how long it takes for me to realize that I dont need to convince someone that I am worth it... Because you know when you know.